What a difference a year makes!!! One year post-op update

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of my gastric bypass surgery.  Hard to believe it's been a year already!!  Looking back I am NOTHING short of amazed at my journey.  Before I get into the benefits I've experienced, to date, I'd like to walk you through a 1 year pictorial of my journey.

Below is a photo of me taken on a trip to Colorado in March of 2014.  Pre surgery.

 And on vacation in August 2014, mere weeks prior to my 8-28-14 surgery.

 Next are photos of me at my 30 year high school reunion on 10-4-2014, a little over a month after surgery.

 The following photo was taken on 10-18-14 for a blog update:

Fast forward to November 2014, three months post surgery.  First is a photo taken in early November on a trip to Las Vegas.  Second photo is from Thanksgiving.  I shaved my head for my aunt (in teal) who is currently fighting ovarian cancer.

And a couple photos from December 2014, one from Christmas Eve with my extended family and one at a hockey game days after Christmas:

 January 2015:

 6 months post surgery (give or take a week or two) February 2015:

 March 2015:

April 2015:

 Then in May I tried on some old clothes and then enjoyed the thrill of wearing smaller sizes (we were headed out to a Cardinals game on May 3rd):

June 2015:  I am pictured center at my survivor sign in the local Miles Against Melanoma Walk on 6-6-15

And below I am pictured with my cousins' son on 6-13-15:

July 2015 at a Blues Season ticket holder event:

8-4-15 on vacation in Wisconsin Dells:

And a day shy of my ONE YEAR anniversary, taken today, 8-27-15:

It's been interesting, to say the least.

Today I saw my nurse practitioner at My New Self Bariatric as my one year post-op follow up.  I weighed in at 238 pounds, about 2-3 lbs lighter than I fluctuate at home.  Difference being I was clothed at their office.  My scale at home fluctuates daily between a 120 lb loss to a 123 lb. weight loss.  Again, my starting weight was 356.

The NP was thrilled at my results.  Her first two comments were that I had exceeded her expectations given I was considered a "revisional" surgery.  Then, she told me I was doing so well that I should be on their tv commercials!!!  What sweet music to my ears.  I know I've personally been thrilled with dropping pounds AND clothing sizes.  And I know my husband and family are all proud of me; but hearing it from the surgeon's office made me feel like a success.  It's hard to explain how I felt with the failed lap band procedure.  People treated me as if I were the reason it failed me.  I knew better; but it bothered me nonetheless.  Today's appointment validated that I am NOT a failure.  In fact, I have far surpassed most patients they do revisional procedures on.  As a side note, I am considered a "revisional" surgery since I first had the gastric lap-band in 2006.  See previous blog updates for that saga!

I asked Lilly (the NP) what I should expect in the way of a goal and how long I'll continue to lose.  She explained that the first year and a half patients typically lose weight easier....then the weight loss slows down or you can experience plateaus.  She went on to tell me that I should realistically expect to get down in the neighborhood of 180, give or take.  She said I may get to 190 and feel and look healthy at that weight....or if I wanted to lose more I could keep going.  She suggested we look at my collarbone and pay attention to when I start to see more bones....as a measure to know when to stop trying to lose.  She also explained that when I plateau, I will need to make some changes to trick the metabolism, whether it's in how I eat or whether I amp up my activity level.  Essentially, I'm looking at another 6 months more of weight loss, even though it will be slower than it was in the very beginning.  I found that to be VERY encouraging.

Truth be known, I will be thrilled to get below 200 pounds and continue having a LIFE back!!!

Right now I am wearing size 22 in shorts and shorts but they are getting loose.  While on vacation, I bought some PJs that were on sale.  I wanted to buy the 22s; but Kevin strongly urged me to get a size 18/20.  MUCH to my surprise, when we got home from our trip, I tried my new pajama's on AND they FIT!!!  I am wearing them now.  I'll spare you that photo!  HA HA.

This week was unseasonably cool which made me realize I need to order some jeans for the fall.  Again, I wanted to get one pair of size 22s and one pair of 20s....Kevin told me to get the 20s.  I did.  They haven't arrived yet; but I'm praying I can get my butt in them!!!  It's so hard for me to get a handle on.  I buy the size I'm in at the moment, wear them once or twice then drop a size.  Frustrating and expensive.  I hope Kevin is right about the jeans, too.  If so, I may have to consult him before I order clothes.  My mind still wants to err on the larger side.  The last time I wore a size 18 or 20 was circa VERY early 1990's. TWENTY FIVE years ago!!!!

My New Self Bariatric has support groups twice monthly.  I must admit that I haven't attended so much as ONE of them.  Mostly because I live across town....and more so because I loathe having to be somewhere at the same time every week or whatever.  It's all I can do to have that commitment for work daily, Monday through Friday.  They have all types of resources available to patients including dietitians that you can make appointments with, etc.  I've been VERY lucky in that I've had ZERO complications or challenges since my surgery.  NONE.  ZERO.  ZILCH.  I find this completely INCREDIBLE and wish I'd just had bypass surgery back in 2006.  Oh well.  Better late than never!!!

I am so passionate about what I've gained from this experience, that I wish I could be a motivational speaker.  I have soooo much to say about it.  I really hope I can inspire others to find their new lease on life!!!  I also find myself looking back at pics of the old "me" and I feel sorry for her.  It's really sad and hard to articulate.  I never saw myself as the sad person I now see the "old me" as.

I've blogged over the last several months about all the things I can do again; and I feel so many emotions.  Earlier this month on vacation I noticed a few more things I can do now.

• I can cross my legs and sit comfortably.  I cannot tell you when I lost that ability as it's been so long.
• I can bend over and tie my own shoes or buckle my sandal straps with no assistance required from my husband.
• I am able to sit on an airplane WITHOUT having to use a seat belt extender AND I'm able to lower the arm rest with no troubles and room to spare.  In the all the way down position, I might add.  Again, I cannot recall the last time I was able to do that!
• My step-son can now hug me and get his arms all the way around me.  PRICELESS.
• For the first time in who knows how many years, I was able to fit in an inner-tube and enjoy not only the lazy river at the water parks on vacation, but also the water slides.  
• I was able to climb many stairs at the water parks on vacation and ride the water slides.  NEVER ONCE did I have to concern myself with weight limits to participate in anything.  I cannot tell you how wonderful that felt.
• I walk and climb and keep up with Kevin and Fox now without getting winded.
• I have energy to do more yard work than I ever did.  I've planted and weeded and done more this summer to beautify our yard than I have my entire life combined.  I am proud of this.
• I do not get exhausted just taking a shower daily.  It's so much easier on me physically now.

Sometimes I wish I could write a book about it all.  It's like my head has all these thoughts swirling.

And if all those benefits weren't enough......Lilly told me to make an appointment to see my primary care doc (internist) who I haven't seen since my surgery.  She suspects I will be able to go off most of my maintenance meds:  cholesterol, blood pressure, etc.  That would be wonderful.  AND I'd save some money in the process!!

Because I hadn't had any lab work done in over 6 months, she did request labs for just about everything.  I went immediately over to Des Peres hospital lab to get that drawn......6 or 8 vials later, I was out of there.  I am anxious to get those results.

Once those are in, I'll make an appointment with Dr. Murray, my internist, to go over them and see what I can eliminate (med wise).

The BEST news of the day is that I do not have to go back for another YEAR.  I LOVE this.  With the lap band it was a monthly ordeal....since the bypass I was on a 1 mo, 3 mo, 6 mo rotation then 1 year.  She encouraged me to call and make appointments in the interim if I need help or run into problems.  And she reminded me I have access to the dietitians.  But I am hoping to have continued success on my own.  We shall see.

I'll do my best to keep up with timely updates.  I was doing them following my doctor appointments; but I'll come up with another way to remember to blog regularly.

In the meantime, I'm down about 120 pounds and living life to my fullest ability.  Thank you to everyone in my circles for the continued prayers and encouragement.  One day at a time.  Work in progress.  To be continued.....................

Lori

The Bad and The Ugly! (post script to yesterday's update)

It occurred to me that my recent update only focused on GOOD things.  I would be remiss if I didn't address some of the not so nice experiences I've had, as well.  I call them "the bad and the ugly".

The truth is.......there is a LOT of UGLY when it comes to battling obesity.  Society's perception is that overweight persons are slobs and eat all the time.  Not necessarily true.

Doctors warned me to be careful of who I choose to share my story with as people can be very judgemental.  I guess it was their way of trying to "protect" me (and their other patients, as well).  But I decided to share my story publicly.  First, there is "no shame in my game" and second, I didn't want to be like Starr Jones who came across like she lost all this weight on her own versus being open and honest about having surgery.  To each their own.  It is what it is.  And the reality is that I felt like surgery was my only option to give me the jump start I needed to become more active.  As simple as that.  I deeply admire those who are able to drop 100 lbs + the old fashioned way of diet and mad exercise.  I didn't have the confidence in myself to go that route.

You know the old saying, "kids are cruel"?  Well, truth is, people can be very cruel, even adults.  I've had people say things to me over the years that are still with me today.  People I've worked with, teammates, clients, you name it.  All.My.Life!

I'll never forget the time a male co-worker of mine, Merrill G. (real names used because I'm not concerned about protecting their identities) told me, "You would be so pretty if you just lost weight".  Mind you, this was in the mid 90's when I weighed close to what I weigh now.  So the comment was made LONG before I put on the additional 100 lbs.  How was I supposed to take that???  The terribly sad thing is he thought he was complimenting me?!

Or just last week when I casually mentioned that I'd had bypass surgery to a client (somehow it came up in the context of the conversation) and her reply was, "Oh Lori, how did you let yourself get like that?".  Well, Miss Jennifer W......as a matter of fact I was quite active until I broke my back at age 18.  Life grounded to a halt and the pounds continued to accumulate from there.  I guess I could have just said, "Well I couldn't overcome my love and addiction of 5 Big Macs a day".  What the hell?  This woman is my peer.  I am now 49 years old.  How do you ask someone that kinda question unless you are particularly close to them, personally?  I dunno.

Those are just two examples that dumbfounded me.

Conversely, I have had ONE very well meaning friend approach me more delicately with a simple, "I'm worried about you" after she saw my mobility declining in between our annual visits.  How was I to be angry or put off by her thoughts when she was RIGHT?!  I appreciated her genuine concern; and shared those same concerns with her.  Truth be known, I'm still in awe of how gracefully she was able to broach the subject.  I was not at all offended.  In fact, I felt very loved and cared for in that moment.  We had a good heart to heart.  This was shortly before I was given insurance approval to have the surgery.  I hope she is proud of me or happy for me now.  And I look forward to many more fun filled visits in the future!

This past week Kevin and I were scrolling through the guide on the television and landed on the show, "My 600 lb Life".  It's a show where cameras follow the efforts of severely overweight individuals through their respective journeys to lose weight.  We watched several back to back episodes.  I cannot watch without crying.  I WAS that person.  Maybe not at 600 lb but otherwise, I shared the same struggles, same mental battles, etc.  If you've never seen it and are curious, check it out:  http://www.tlc.com/tv-shows/my-600-lb-life/    I watch and think to myself, I feel so sorry for that person.  I even feel sorry for my "former" person.  I've felt all those same things that you see them anguishing over.  I wish I could tell them what I know now.  I even cringe when I see them sabotage their efforts by binging on certain things.  I've been known to do that.  Before my surgery, I would send Kevin out for French Silk pies from time to time.  I don't do that now.  In fact, more often than not, I think I want something only to discover (a bite or two into it) that I don't even like it any more.  You REALLY do lose cravings for things, in my case sugar.  Last night, for example, Kevin decided to make himself a bowl of ice cream.  It sounded good; so I had him make me one, too.  We only keep Edy's No Sugar Added in the house, so I was safe.  And we had some Sugar Free caramel and hot fudge toppings.  I ate mine; but I was IMMEDIATELY nauseated.  In fact, I was soooo nauseated (insert, "How nauseated were you?".....) that I had to take an anti nausea pill and pray myself to sleep.  Pretty sure I won't be in a hurry to indulge in that any time soon.

I have discovered that the Lyon's Frozen Custard stand by our house has a Sugar Free Vanilla variety.  My stomach tolerates that fairly well.  I don't get any toppings, just whipped cream (which is naturally low in sugar) and nuts.  And that suits the craving.

Anyway, I have so many random thoughts swirling in my head that I think I want to share on my blog.  The trick is remembering to jot them down as I'm typing my monthly stories.

I am blessed that I have a loving, accepting circle of family and friends that I surround myself with.  So the negative comments are few and far between now.  But I wanted to show you a couple examples of very hurtful things that are said to people who are overweight.

Have a great week!

Lori

Let Freedom Ring!!! (10 month post op update)

Hope everyone had wonderful Independence Day celebrations!  I am now TEN months post gasric bypass surgery.  Where has the time gone?

Every day I celebrate the freedoms that I've gained since making the choice to have weight loss surgery.  I never cease to be amazed by the increase in quality of life now that I have my mobility back!

Key observations over the past month:

• I no longer need a seat belt extender in a car.  I can now wear a standard seatbelt comfortably.
• I now have less social anxiety about attending gatherings and meeting new people (not necessarily more confident in how I look, just less self conscious or feeling of a failure, I'd say.  Hard to articulate to those who haven't experienced it).  Suffice it to say, I'm more social now than I've been for the past 5 years.  Save for the days my Fibromyalgia flares up and I cancel on friends to stay home and reenergize.
• I am willing to do yardwork, gardening, weeding, etc. now.  Whereas a year ago, I wouldn't even attempt it.  I would get winded so easily.  Not sure if Kevin appreciates this new found energey as it means he's often out there with me?!  Last weekend we cut down some limbs on a droopy tree in our front yard.  If it ever stops raining long enough, we'll tackle the trees in the backyard, too!
• I was able to keep up with my family when we walked in the Miles Against Melanoma Walk on June 6th.  Regardless of what they claim the route was, those who walked with me agree that it was more than a 1 mile walk.  I am grateful that I was able to walk it and cross the finish line.
• I no longer have to hide behind clothing that is a size or two larger than I really wear.  In fact, I look downright ridiculous in anything that is one size over where I am now.  I am thrilled to say that I am now in a size 22 top and pant/shorts.  I never made it as far down as a 22 post lap-band surgery.  So this is HUGE.  The last time I recall being in this size is the early 90's.  Words cannot express what a wonderful feeling this is.  Particularly, since pre surgery I was wearing loose 34's.  I am also down in shoe size, interestingly enough.  I was wearing 8.5 and 9's before.  Today I am in an 8.  Not wide, just regular old standard ladie's 8!
• I've reached not one but TWO numerical milestones.  Not only did I drop below 300 lbs.  But I am also now under 250 pounds.  I am living for the day I cross under the 200 lb. mark.  Trust me when I say you'll hear me singing from the mountain tops!  What does this mean?  Well for one, it means I can zip line now and be UNDER the weight capacity.  I can also sit in average chairs without worrying about their weight capacity (office chairs, lawn chairs, even hammocks!).  I don't have to worry about my ladder failing me any more due to pushing it's limits.  Sadly, I still have to worry about falling and hurting myself, though.  And I took another spill recently.  It makes me a lot less confident when walking!  Also on the downside, it means no more early boarding and extra seat when flying Southwest.  I suppose all good things come to an end!  I fly to San Antonio for work in a week or so.  I'll be sure to comment next blog as to how that felt.  I'll actually have someone seated next to me?!  Gasp.  I'm not sure if I like that.  The older I get the larger my "personal bubble" becomes.
• I haven't had ANY problems with my feet swelling.  I can enjoy all those strappy sandals that I once considered selling.  ABSOLUTELY loving this benefit!
• Another HUGE milestone is being able to walk in a Marshalls or Ross store and buy $10 dresses off the rack and be able to not only fit in them but wear them nicely.  We attended a friend's daughter's wedding on 6-27-15.  My $10 dress came from Ross and it was comfortable, too!  #WINNING
• I can STILL enjoy the things I love........like sweets (when made sugar free) and Starbucks (with a little special ordering), etc.  I honestly haven't felt like I am deprived of anything I crave.  I've learned to play it smart.  So for inquiring minds, I have to keep my sugar intake to 5g or less per serving.  I have discovered that my stomach can tolerate up to 7g safely.  The risk of having more results in "dumping" syndrome where you run to the bathroom (and I mean RUN) to either vomit or manage severe nausea or a severe gastric explosion from the other end.  Neither are particularly fun; so I make no effort to push my limits.  Incidentally, I've learned my limits so they aren't difficult to manage now.  But I had anti nausea meds in the beginning (while I was still learning).  They were a lifesaver many a night!  So back to the Starbucks, my favorite drink is a new flavor called "Caramel Cocoa Cluster".  HEAVEN in a cup.  It's a pain having to order it all high maintenance like; and Kevin swears listening to me order it wears him out....BUT here's how I have to do it:  Grande Cocoa Caramel Cluster Light, substitute Sugar Free Mocha.  Bada Boom, Bada Bing..........I can still enjoy Starbucks!!!  I continue to learn how to buy sugar free options at the store.  And I'm hopeful that someday I'll see as many sugar free options as I do gluten free now.
• I still loathe exercise; so unless it's something I'm doing actively (yardwork, shopping, etc), it's not happening.  Right, Wrong or Indifferent.  I do hope to start a regime to tackle my "chicken wing" arms, however.
• I can drink alcohol in very small quantities.  I was able to enjoy a couple glasses of wine on a recent overnight winery trip.  And I've enjoyed a glass here and there, since.  Because I tend to enjoy semi-sweet wines, I have to limit myself to no more than 2 glasses at a time.  Lori-size glasses, NOT Kevin-size glasses.  He still tends to pour wine like he pours beer!  The doctor mentioned a while back that most patients get intoxicated very easily post surgery.  The body no longer processes the alcohol the same.  Fortunately, I haven't had enough to feel like I've been "drunk" per se.  Another limit I have no intention of pushing.
• Lawn seats are no longer impossible for me.  I was able to get up and down accordingly at the recent Darius Rucker concert we attended as Kevin's Father's Day gift.  However, it does still wreak havoc on my back.  Not comfortable at all.  We'll take extra cushion for the July Earth, Wind & Fire venue.  Still not confident I can get in and out of the chairs they rent?!  

All told, I am at a current weight (as of today) of 242.6.  Technically I began at 356.6, so I am down a total of 114.  This means I lost 7 lbs in the month of June or since my last blog update.  I'm losing at a very slow and steady rate which has helped my skin to adapt.  I have no visable signs of excess skin.  The only "ugly" fact is I still have my bat wing arms, which I hate.  I will have to do something about that (exercise).  Doctors recommend 1-2 lbs per week, which is right about where I am.  While I'd love to drop faster, I am hoping to escape needing surgery or feeling the need for an additional surgery for excess skin removal.  So far, so good.  Whew!  I hope this update doesn't JINX me!

Below is our month in pictures (in chronological order).  As a family, we had a busy yet FUN month.  Hopefully you can see my continued transformation in the photos.  Enjoy.  Thanks for all of your encouragement, love and friendship.  Have a great July!  Until next month...........

Lori

Miles Against Melanoma Walk June 6, 2015

Little River Band Concert 6-19-2015

Darius Rucker Concert 6-26-2015

Porcia and John's Wedding 6-27-2015

Photo taken today 7-5-2015

Not much into selfies or having my picture taken; but Kevin was kind enough to take this for the sake of a blog update!  I still look doofy in them.  I prefer snapshots with others in them with me!

Life 9 months post Gastric Bypass Surgery-LOTS to CELEBRATE!!!

The truth is, 9 months after surgery, I'm kind of past the "discovery" phase.  Other than my current stats, there's really not much "news" to report.  So, lucky for you, this will be another short and sweet blog post with the basics.

In two days it will officially be 9 months since my bypass surgery last August.  The one recurring thought I have is, "WHY didn't I do this sooner?", "WHY didn't I just had bypass instead of lap band in 2006?", "I could have had EIGHT MORE years of LIFE?!".  Ahhh, but I suppose that wasn't part of His plan.  Better late than never.

Today I weighed in at 107 pounds down.  Based on our conservative goal of a total 180 pounds to lose, I have 73 to go.  I wonder how long that will take.  It's coming off steadily but in a lot slower fashion that the first 80 or so.  I'm OK with that; so long as the line on my weight loss graph keeps going the right direction!!!

I feel like I say the SAME thing over and over on each post.........I can't get over how much more energy and LIFE I have in me.  As the days, weeks and months pass, the feeling only intensifies.  Aside from my health, it's been the number ONE benefit for me, honestly.

I think about the things I used to NEVER do and how much I am enjoying them now.  Just last year I was paying others to plant flowers in our garden and tidy up our yard to enjoy.  This year, I am able to do it myself AND enjoy it.  It's still physically demanding for a near 50 year old; but my body tolerates the heat and the labor now.  I now have the mobility to do those things.  It's literally AMAZING to me.  I am so grateful.

Here's a few things I managed to accomplish this weekend while Kevin took his turn to trim all the overgrowth along our fence lines.  I did it last year (pre surgery) and promised him this year was on him!  Together we managed to FINISH the back yard with the exception of needing a chain saw to trim a few limbs from trees and one small pile of leaves we ran out of lawn bags for.  FINALLY we're ready to kick back and enjoy our yard for the season!

Memorial Weekend was probably our first weekend in over 6 months that we didn't have any plans.  So we agreed to commit to one thing and then spend the rest at home working on chores and relaxing.  We kept our promise to one another.

I have a cousin who is a mere 48 and in congestive heart failure.  He was told there was nothing more they can do for him (no more stents, bypass surgeries, etc).  Additionally, he was denied for a heart transplant recently.  So we decided to take a day trip down to Kimmswick and meet up with him and his wife for the afternoon.

My aunt, who is fighting a battle of her own (ovarian cancer) asked if she could crash our party.  So she and her hubby rode their Harley down and met up with us.

It was a beautiful weekend.  We had a gorgeous day, sunshine and mild temps, wonderful company and just a simple good time.  I think it was great medicine for everyone.  While some may consider that I'm in a battle of MY own with obesity, I see it as I've been given a new lease on life.  I am so glad I was able to spend the day with people I love who are fighting for their lives.  We shared laughter and tears.  It was much more about being together than it was where we were or what we were doing.

We closed the evening by having dinner at my cousin, Charlie's local haunt, La Pachanga.  FUN times.  So fun that we've already set another "date" for June 20th.  For all my Kranz cousins, don't miss Cousins' night at Fairmount Park!!!

Below is a photo of us (with our spouses) at LaPachanga.......celebrating LIFE and LOVE.

Wishing you all PEACE, LIFE and LOVE-

Lori

WOW, what a difference 8 months can make! 100 lbs. down and 80 to go!

I've been putting this blog entry off; because I have so many random thoughts swirling in my head.  It's a lot for one person to digest, let alone try to craft into words.

For those wanting the cliff notes version, here you go:  I FINALLY made it to the 100 pound milestone.  I wasn't sure I'd ever see the day....particularly after a failed lap band procedure in 2006.  The doctor gave me a realistic goal of losing 180.  Judging by how long it took those last pesky 5, I'm guessing the next 80 is going to require a LOT more effort on my part.  While I'm doing real well with eating healthier and portion control.....it is time to step up my game.  Physical activity is going to be the key.  I'm hoping that the warmer weather will bring a desire for me to get a bike and ride as well as do more hiking and yard work.  I'm not one for working out, per se.  We'll see.

Now then, for all the friends, family, folks aspiring to lose weight, etc.........here's the REAL story......

My starting weight was 356 pounds.  I am now at 256 pounds.  At my heaviest I was wearing a size 34 pants and a women's 30/32 shirt.  That's equivalent to a men's 3XL and sometimes I'd even get a 4X because I liked them roomy!  Today I am in a size 24 pant (I can't remember the last time I fit in that size, to be honest) and a 22/24 shirt.  I wear a men's XXL comfortably (with room to spare).  I cannot describe how completely strange it is to look in the mirror weekly and literally watch your body shrink.  I really only SEE and FEEL it in my clothes.  All of a sudden, I'm fitting into smaller sizes, my old clothes look ridiculous and my face and body look a little different every day.  It's like I'm morphing into the unknown.  But in a "Man, I FEEL good" kinda way.  And when I say I "feel" good, I mean, I have boundless energy as compared to a year ago.  It's truly AMAZING to get my life back.  I'll explain that later.  But first, for fun, I had Kevin take a few pics of me in some "before" clothes and some "present" clothing.  I was remiss and didn't save any of my size 34 pants so I found a 32 to use for illustration.

Below is me in the clothes I wore last hockey season.  And the shirt fit me (as Kevin said) "like a second skin".  I put this CHILL shirt on the other day (to wear out) and was like, "HOLY CRAP, it's a dress!".

Recently I've been forced to purchase new clothes.  It's been FUN begin able to go into a Ross, Marshalls or TJ Maxx and find designer label clothing in my size again.  I scored a few new items:  Michael Kors, Ralph Lauren, Jones New York, etc.  Now for sure I feel like I'm getting the "old" Lori back!!!

BY FAR the greatest "gift" I've been given post surgery is A NEW LIFE.  I know it sounds cliche; but I was a prisoner to my fat for soooo long.  I had limitations which mounted year after year as I continued to gain weight.  I had a VERY poor self image.  I avoided a LOT of things, opportunities to meet new people (based on the impression I'd leave them with), etc.  As I look back, I feel sorry for the "old" Lori....and anyone else who is or has ever felt that way.

Types of things I avoided:  business travel, social gatherings where I didn't know EVERYONE who would be there or would be meeting new people, sporting events (I always felt like a pretzel after trying to squeeze into the seats and 2 days of muscle relaxers thereafter was hardly worth it), pool parties, walking.........I'd NEVER consider walking a block or two downtown to a restaurant or a sports venue because I'd get too winded and my heart would race, our family's annual Miles Against Melanoma fundraiser walk in honor of my grandpa and uncle (I, myself, am a survivor), concerts (for the same seating issue), taking the kid to the Zoo, Disneyland, Disneyworld type places, etc.  The list is ENDLESS.

I am THRILLED to say that I've been to more sporting events in the past 8 months than I probably have in the 8 years prior!  This is great for me and for my marriage as it's a passion we share.

Kevin and I are now able to work in the yard TOGETHER now.  Yesterday we cleaned up our flower beds in the front yard, trimmed hedges and did our best to make the place look warm and inviting for guests.  Next week we tackle the backyard!

I'm looking forward to the day I can sit in the lawn seats at Verizon/Riverport/Whatever it's called these days and get up on my own accord, without Kevin having to hoist me up.  Maybe by July when we go see Earth, Wind & Fire and Chicago.  Fingers crossed!

While I know in my heart of hearts, my friends and family loved me before....I just feel MORE of a person now than I ever did, psychologically.  Less weak, less vulnerable.

The energy boost is nothing shy of INCREDIBLE.  I am so thankful to now have the willingness, desire AND capability to do the things I've always enjoyed.  I cannot wait to buy a bicycle and start going on little family rides.  Our neighborhood borders two parks, we can easily ride to the park and back all summer.  I'm even considering taking an aqua cycle course over the summer.  So, in a sense I'm discovering a whole new me....or discovering the old me that was long left behind.

I'm not sure if I ever shared this tidbit; but at the age of 18, I broke my back.  Double fracture of my T-12 (12thThoracic vertebrae).  I was 1/4 " away from my spinal cord.  The doctors thought I'd never walk again.  I defied the odds...was released from the hospital next day with nothing more than a back brace to wear for 9 months.  I am convinced that this is when the weight began to pack on.  Prior to that I was attending my first year of college at UMSL and working out with my good friends, Kelly Beran Weiss and Grace Gain Masters every day.  We'd rotate:  one day swimming laps, one day playing basketball and another day running.  Not to say that's the sole reason for my weight gain.  Much of it has to do with genetics, too; but it was where the downward spiral began.  That was 1985.  So, in essence, I've served this prison sentence (trapped in this body) for 29 years.  TWENTY NINE years of accumulating weight gain before I was able to turn things around.  That's over HALF my lifetime.  It was time to take my life back.

Below are a couple of pictures from this morning.  They are my "present self".  I was trying to figure out what I'm going to wear to the Cardinals game today.  For those inquiring minds, I chose the bottom outfit; because I didn't like the smaller shirt showing my rolls and back fat.  However, now that I see the bottom pic, I still see the spare tire.  I guess some things will juet be for now.  I'm going to simply be proud of the 100 pound loss and learn to live with the little imperfections, knowing that I'm still a long way from where I was a mere 8 months ago.

A few little benefits of being 100 pounds lighter:

• I can't tell you the last time I felt short of breath.  It's been wonderful being able to walk and be on the go
• Did I mention I can cross my legs now?
• My legs and ankles do not swell near like they used to.  I can wear cute sandals again!
• If I choose the right clothing, I can actually see that I have an hourglass figure, even if it's a larger scale than most.
• Buying new clothes out of necessity makes you feel a LOT less guilty about spending money on yourself!
• I can fit (with room to spare) in my stylist's chair!
• I can fit in stadium seating
• I no longer need a seat belt extender or extra seat when flying
• I no longer need a selt belt extended in the car
• I do a lot more around the house now........more energy for keeping up with meals and dishes, helping out with lawn care, etc.
• I don't get as exhausted after merely taking a shower now.  This is incredible in itself.  I don't get dizzy bending over to shave, or winded by the time I get out.  I don't have to lie down for a 15 min break afterwards, although habit has be doing it still.
• I can bend over and reach to get whatever I need.
• I can go up and down the stairs to the man cave now without worrying so much about falling or getting out of breath or my knees screaming.  Silly yet HUGE.  Although often once I'm down there I wish I hadn't gone..........cos I discover the mess that it is.
• Now we're planning on taking the kid to Legoland in August....and I'm not at all worried about walking it.  If and when I get tired, I'll pull up a bench with a drink and take a rest.  No big deal.

I know I'll think of a dozen more wicked random thoughts at like 3 am in the morning.  But for now, you get the gist.  100 pounds has given me a new lease on life, literally!

Special Note to all the friends and family who have invited me to parties/places in the past that I've declined.  I hope you know that it was never that I wasn't interested in attending.  I just avoided meeting new people or people outside of my "safe circle".  I'm glad to be getting past that now!  So please keep us on the invite list!!!  If we decline, it's simply because we have to slow down a little or because we have a conflict.  For my friends with the "three strike rule", I hope you'll reconsider!

When you go through a transformation like this, it's not just in body, it's also in mind and in spirit (heart).  It's a total transformation.....and I hope to emerge a much brighter, happier, grounded person from it.

Thanks for following along; and I wish you all the best in your respective journeys.  Until next time...........

Lori

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Quick 6 month post up appointment update

Because I had such POSITIVE feedback at my 6 month post surgery appointment yesterday, I felt compelled to draft another quick blog update.

Technically, 6 months would fall on February 28th.  It was that day in August that I went under the knife.  I remember having a feeling of readiness; yet few expectations after a failed lap-band procedure in 2006.

Anyway, so yesterday I had an appointment for my 6 month follow up.  It was one of those days where you arrive on time only to sit in the waiting room for another 2 hours before being called back.  Even then you sit another 30 minutes before the first "visit" occurs. 

First comes the infamous weigh in and blood pressure check, followed by a quick consult with the dietitian.  We typically discuss any issues I've had with foods (any vomiting?  any nausea?  etc), what types of foods I've been eating, whether I've been getting a minimum of 60g of protein in daily and what my physical activity looks like.

I explained that I was sick from Dec. 24th through the first week of February; and that I'm JUST now starting to feel among the living (two rounds of antibiotics and allergy meds later).  My appetite during that time was hit and miss.  And nothing tasted good.  Fortunately, it's finally coming back.

Last Friday night we met friends at Bobby's Place on Main for happy hour and dinner.  We had half prize appetizers.  Then a few hours later ordered side salads.  My salad was so heavenly that I had a little more than my stomach was happy with.  BAM!  Nausea.  Thankfully I still had my magic anti-nausea pills.  15 minutes later, I was golden!

I also filled the dietitian in on our Valentine's Day trip to The Melting Pot....the first meal in over a month that was THOROUGHLY enjoyable.  One word:  OVERINDULGENCE.  I spent 30 minutes in pure hell before the magic pills set in.

She didn't seem too concerned...was happy the appetite was coming back and thrilled with my weight loss success.  She also seemed content with my activity levels.  Surprising I didn't get more of a lecture there.  I have a sedentary job; and the most footsteps my Jawbone logs is on weekends.

I did mention to her that I've noticed new food cravings, things I've never "craved" before, per se.  I went on to explain that on Superbowl Sunday, Kevin and I stocked up on junk food for watching the game.  I then told her that for some reason I also insisted that we get a veggie tray and a fruit tray/fresh fruit for that day.  Oddly enough, I had a couple bites of the poor choices (my former faves) and then decided I wanted/craved the fruit and veggies.  It sounded so fake; but it was true.  I ended up enjoying the fruits and veggies more.  It's a phenomena that I've noticed more and more lately.  I can't explain it.  But she did.  She proceeded to explain to me that when you begin eating healthier, your body quits craving the bad foods and starts craving healthier things.  I'm having a hard time believing it is happening to me.  Such a stark change for me.  Another very surreal feeling.  Sadly my mind and my stomach aren't always in agreement.  At times, I still THINK I want those former faves; but in the end, I can only take a bit or two of them and I'm done.  Gone are the days of overindulging on chips, dips and sweets.  Fortunately, one or two bites satisfies me.

Anyway, so long story longer.............I am experiencing very different cravings these days.  Ones I never thought were possible.

Ok, so once we were done "visiting" I spent another 10 minutes or so alone in the room before the Nurse Practitioner came in.

She went over what the dietitian noted; and then wanted to "check my belly".  I have to laugh.  She presses around my abdomen and then tells me, "everything looks beautiful".  NEVER really thought of my belly as "beautiful", so it tickles me every time she says it.

Lily, the NP went on to tell me she was THRILLED with my results to date.  She says that typically they do not see this pace of success on a "revisional surgery".  My bypass is considered revisional because Dr. Scott removed my lap-band to do the bypass.  I had a former treatment for obesity (the band) that failed me.  And typically results are slower on patients like myself.  She tried to articulate it more clearly for me by saying that I am beyond their expectations for me at this juncture.  This was certainly music to my ears.

She gave me an order for lab work to check my cholesterol and things I currently take meds for.  Hopefully soon I'll be able to cut back on my daily maintenance meds, as well as my CPAP.  But I'll need to see my specialist for another sleep study likely (as far as the apnea goes).  I've been sleeping without my CPAP for a week or so now.  Kevin swears that the mask must be too big for me now as the leaking air keeps him awake at night.  I've yet to make an appointment with Midwest Chest Consultants....mostly due to the fact that my health plan switched over from PPO to a HSA on Jan. 1.  So basically I have to pay 100% of everything till the deductible is met, then I pay coinsurance.  Not very practical.  I digress.  In addition to the lab work order, Lily gave me a prescription for my B12 nasal spray which I take weekly.

From there I was free to go.....AND, I don't have to go back for another SIX MONTHS.  I made an appointment for August and set on about my afternoon.  After the August appointment, I will be on an ANNUAL schedule.  I am so incredibly excited about only having to go once a year thereafter.  Particularly with them being an all day adventure and taking place across town, a 45 minute drive each way.  Life is Good.

But BY FAR, THE best news of the day was that I had lost 35 lbs. since my last visit, 3 months ago.  This was with jeans and bundled up clothing on.

This morning, I weighed myself.  I am at 266.8 pounds, down from 356 starting weight.  That's 89.2 pounds down in just under 6 months.  While utterly overjoyed, I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that this is very real, not just some pipe dream.  I've far exceeded my own expectations already; and I still struggle to imagine what the future can possibly hold for me.  To put it mildly, the loss has given me a new lease on life.  Quality of life has improved infinitely.  It's VERY difficult for me to put into words the range of emotion and pride and excitement that come into play here.  My own mind is literally BLOWN that I am only 11 pounds away from being able to say I've lost 100 pounds.  That is HUGE....and so so hard to believe.  That milestone will definitely be cause for celebration!!!  But like my sales quota, I won't be happy to leave it at that.  I'm all about shooting for the stars, overachieving.  So I look forward to seeing where this journey lands me when all is said and done.  Where will I land (weight wise) and physical appearance wise?!  I'm anxious to discover the person who dwells inside me.

For now all I notice when I look in the mirror are subtle changes.....a face that looks slightly thinner, clothes that are fitting me differently, etc.  I don't see an overwhelming change like 89 pounds would sound.  I do notice that I don't critique photos of me near as badly as I used to.  And with that being said, below is a photo Kevin took of me after the hockey game (Mardi Gras night) last night.  I had to forgo the first St. Louis Blues, Fat Bluesday event due to illness.  So he bought me a shirt at the game I missed.  And because they do the whole Fat Bluesday themes at every Tuesday night game in February, I was able to sport my new threads at last night's game.  I am very happy that I was able to not only wear a 2X but that I was comfortable with a turtleneck under it AND it went over my ginormous hips.  That was a first in years.  Just 6 mos. ago I was wearing size 4X shirts so they'd go over my hips without bunching, gathering, etc.  I'm curious to see if I ever make it down to a XL.  Strange concept.

But first a reminder of my "before" photo.  THEN............

and NOW.......

I will try to continue with monthly updates and include my annual follow up appointment updates as well.

Thanks again to all of my family and friends for their positive words and encouragement throughout this ongoing journey.

Love-

Lori

It's that time of the month...........time to update the 'ol blog.  At year end, I weighed in at 284.6 pounds and was feeling relatively ecstatic that I was able to attend a Blues game and sit in regular seating, with no issues of fitting or feeling like a pretzel when I got up.  Life was good.

Fast forward to end of January/beginning of February.  Life continues to get better.  I don't even know where to begin describing the little observations I make daily.  THE biggest and most obvious improvement in my quality of life is, by far, the increase in energy and mobility.

Shortly after Christmas, my husband bought me a fitness tracker that I'd been wanting.  After researching the Garmin Vivofit, the Fitbit and the JawBone, I ended up with the JawBone Up.  I absolutely LOVE it.  It maintains a charge for up to 14 days.  I wear it at ALL times (other than when bathing or showering).  It tracks my footsteps.  The app on my phone also allows me to log my weight, my daily meals, my drinks, and even my sleep!  Not only do I get daily tips.  But I also get a weekly report emailed to me that summarizes my average sleep, average steps per day, etc.  I love getting the summaries.  While I do not have a regular exercise routine at this point, it seems to show me that I am most active on the weekends.  Sounds right, given we stay real busy on weekends.  For the past month I've worked my full time job and spend an additional 40 hours per week at least on the trivia night planning.  I am beyond thankful that I was in shape enough to be on my feet most of the 13+ hours we worked to set up and execute the event.  I was also able to navigate the room logging over 6500 steps and squeezing my way between back to back chairs all night.  To the normal individual, you're like, "so what?".  But to someone who has (for years) avoided crowded rooms, anything physically laborious, etc.  It's a huge improvement.

I'm now down 4 jeans sizes and 2 sweatpant sizes.  I'm not really sure how many shirt or blouse sizes as I tend to still wear my roomy ones.  I used to take a 3X or 4X in a t-shirt; and I'm now in a 2XL and dropping.  It's a VERY strange feeling to think that someday I may actually be able to wear a basic XL.  In fact, I did wear an XL last Saturday; but I still prefer my shirts a little roomier yet.  The 2X thing is really nice right now as Kevin and I can share hockey jerseys, etc or take turns wearing them.  It was a strange feeling fitting back into a size 26 jeans after I can't even tell you how many years.  Now those are roomy.  It's hard to buy clothes.  Because you never know how much use you will get out of them.  I have tried selling my like new larger jeans on Craigslist and Facebook, to no avail.

It's strange when I look in the mirror from time to time.  I see some slight transformation....a slightly more narrow face, a slightly different body shape, a person I don't recall ever meeting.  I try to wrap my head around what it will be like when I actually reach my goal weight.  Will I like how I look?  What will I feel like?  So many unknowns.

I'm not one on taking selfies; so I rarely have photos to share with you.  But as I have them, I'll be certain to share.  I'm looking forward to some more family portraits in April when we celebrate my folks 50th wedding anniversary.

I was ill from Dec 24th till the present day.  I seem to have caught some crud that lingers like there is no tomorrow.  This week I finally called the doctor back for more meds.  I got another round of antibiotics and a nasal spray.  I've felt like I've been hit by a Mack truck all week; so I finally broke down and called in sick....this is the third day.  I slept most of the day.  Hoping I can power through the next two days and take it easy over the weekend.  I've got to shake this.

For Super Bowl Sunday, Kevin and I made a special trip to the store for game day munchies.  We got some frozen Schnucks appetizers, sloppy joes for lunch that day, chips, dips, etc.  But the two things I really wanted the most were dip for my carrots and stawberries and fruit dip.  NEVER in my life have I craved fruits and vegetables.  I've always loved raw carrots, broccoli and cauliflower.  But I've never been that big on fruit, much less craved it.  As I've been home sick all week, I've managed to drain a bag of carrots; and I'm down to 3 strawberry bites left.  This is going to call for another trip to the store, STAT.  I am grateful that my taste buds are changing.  But I still get a little tripped out when I go to take a bit of something I THINK I want and it doesn't even taste good.  

It wasn't that long ago that I could totally KILL a bag of chips by myself or when one cookie was nowhere near enough of a snack.  It really blows my mind.

Today I stood on the scale.  I looked down and it said 270.6.  My pre-surgery weight was 356 if you remember.  That means I've lost 85.4 pounds since the end of August.  I'm FLOORED, honestly.  I've long confided to my parents that I cannot wrap my head around the concept of losing 100 pounds much less any more.  But today I'm only 14.6 pounds away from knowing that reality.  That's about how much weight I lost over the past month.  INSANE.  I'm anxious and nervous yet excited to see what the coming months have in store for me.

Truth be known, I do not have a regular workout routine.  I work a sedentary job and remain very active with my family on the weekends.  That's all.  I try to eat right and do the right things; but I am not dieting, per se.  I just eat a whole lot less (thanks to surgery and my smaller stomach) and move more.

Every.Single.Day I wish I had done this back in 2006 versus messing with the lap band.  I can't even imagine where I would be today if I'd have known then what I know now.

We have some big plans for February.  First there's a tasting on Saturday for my parents' 50th Anniversary reception....we have to choose menu items.  Hoping I can enjoy that!!  My birthday is the 9th.......hoping I can score a sugar free birthday cake.  I'm thinking a Key Lime Mousse cake is in order....HINT HINT mom and Abbie!  ;-)

Kevin and I share February birthdays plus there's Valentine's Day.  So we have reservations for one of our favorite places for the 14th.  The Melting Pot.  I am hoping I'm able to enjoy it.  I haven't been since before surgery.  And I hope I can enjoy the dessert without getting sick from sugar.  Kevin will be thrilled to "help" me eat all that I can't.  We also get a half dozen chocolate covered strawberries.  Mmmmm  I'm looking so forward to that meal.

We also have Blues tickets for the 17th, Kevin's Birthday on the 24th, Don Williams concert on the 25th and what we hope will be another delicious dinner at Kemoll's on the 28th.

Life just keeps getting better.  For anyone considering gastric bypass surgery and lap band, I sincerely hope my story is helping you to make informed decisions.  Bypass surgery has given me a new lease on life in just 5 short months.  I can't wait to see how I'm doing in 5 more months and 5 more after that.

PLEASE feel free to share my story with any friends you have who could benefit from hearing my story.  My entire reason for blogging is to track for myself the changes and feelings; but also to share my experiences with those who face the same challenges with obesity, mobility, quality of life, etc.

I hope to have more exciting news for you in a month...........the countdown to a 100 lb loss begins, NOW!!!